Greener Grasses
So heed me now, though all my quondam whispers rise From darknesses and little deaths You did despise Or seemed to. Your tremendous volte-face preyed each year Upon my gullibility to bend Your ear And racked this ruined soul with frames of phantom guilt. Your accidental turning broke the barns I built To store, unrealized, the mildewed fruit I bore. I listened and ran bleating to Your closing door. But when You turned I never saw Your fabled smile But wept upon Your thorny brow, to lose my guile Where rivulets of blood do still obscure Your eyes And gather where my hopes and weathered dreaming dies. But here I lie, and ever did I, catlike, do. For once, I now remember, where the olives grew With mists between the small hills and dawn on the felled Ancient castellations of the marches, You held My eyes and opened them on glimpses of Your face. And have You changed? Is this why now there is no trace? But now I think I mind a moonlit path I walked Where all the trees were dancing with Your voice and talked Between themselves and lifted their long-fingered praise. And You stopped me like a traveller with Your gaze And bade me lift this old, old burden from my back. You have not changed. But surely I must learn my lack. Then other places where Your love drew near, precious And strong, or weeping and long, like milestones, conscious Of me, spread along these dusts. I pine in my sleep, Now. Now Your mercies crowd upon me from some deep And dead forgotten cavern of my wayward heart. I am the lost sheep. But no sooner do we start Back on the pasture than I stray among the rocks Or bandy words with, here, a wolf or, there, a fox. Brand my hide with Your blood-red love, sacred shepherd. Teach me the strong timbre of Your speech that, once heard, Will ever be obeyed. And lead me, lead me now, To grasses greener, sweeter than the heart knows how.
Sean O’neill
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